Its 3:30 AM and im still not asleep.

Do you know why? Its because of you. Im so worried about you
When are you going to get everything together?
I see you waste away everyday of your life..letting it pass by as though its not worth living.
why?
i can see it so clearly..why cant you see how amazing you are? and how far you can go.
You can have everything you ever wanted..all you need to do is let yourself have it.
What are you so scared of? Tell me everything. Im still right here for you..i never left you..and your pain kills me inside..keeps me up at night.
But what makes me feel ever worse is the way you push me out. Let me in. Please. I can help you. I want to help you. You know i would give myself up if it could save you.
Im still here. Inside you. I never abandoned you..and no matter who abandons you i will still always be here. Let me take you hand. Let me be the shoulder you can cry on. Let me make you strong

I know what you think..you think im gone forever. You think its all over..like it never even existed. But the truth is that it did.

Dont do this to yourself. And if you dont care about yourself then think of it this way: dont do this to me. Because every wound you inflict upon yourself is felt by me too.
All i ask for you is to let me in.

The only thing worse than seeing you destroy yourself is being locked outside your life and watching you crumble like a spectator. And i cant do that.

You're the only one i ever believed in.

I love you